you

your soul embracing my broken heart

your kiss soothing my pain

your touch is a creative art

youve made my insanity sain

breathing in your tantilizing scent

melting at your gaze

things i thought were never ment

blissful with your praise

your shoulder absorbing my every tear

your words depressing all doubt

your love sheltering my every fear

i need within and without

longing to feel your fingers

aching for your care

the tickling sensation lingers

as if you were still here

imagining your laughter

seeing the engraved smile

happily ever after

it still happens once in a while

Shangrila (another one only the los and lettes will understand)

My thoughts race

as I look through faded memories of what once was

My heart aches

as my eyes fill with the bloody tears of hated thoughts of what could have been

Time stands still

only for a moment for you to realize how much you truly hurt

Clock ticks again

as the anger rushes over turning into pain all over again

Tinted glass

can only shade you from the direct violence of the rage

There is no way to escape...

nowhere to run...

Why run...

Why hide

It hurts so much that I just want to fade away

into the shadows

that are left by the fallen los and lettes

in hopes that I will be taken into Shangri la with their souls

Drift away into nothing

Into the depths of darkness

Into the epitome of the never ending silence

I close my eyes

and imagine the hatchet that one day

will take the last breath of my existence

When i see the blood trickle down the sharpened blade

and finally

I see happiness

mmfwkl

I wrote this while he was in Iraq

emptyness is over powerering

the pain of hurt so real

clouds of loss its towering

short of breath with what i feel

missing your embrace

your smell it lingers here

the smile on your face

overwhelming sence of fear

i cry myself to sleep

waiting for your call

i cry myself to sleep

i miss you after all

hearing your heartbeat

the taste of your lips

feelings of defeat

i just cant get a grip

to hear your voice

touch your skin

you had no choice

but to go back again

i cry myself to sleep

waiting for your call

i cry myself to sleep

i miss you after all

the tears they fall

emotions strong

as i wait for your call

and fear something is wrong

waiting...

time ticking...

anticipating...

nuthing....

i cry myself to sleep

waiting for your call

i cry myself to sleep

i miss you after all

i

cry myself

to sleep

time

time is only a matter of perception

perception depends on mood ..

mood depends on environment

and you are always where you put yourself

so...

your time is wasted by your choice

not my or anyone elses doing

IMMA BITCH

you think I’m a bitch

ha you wait and see

as My heart slowly rips apart

I become colder and colder

as I think of you and the way you are

the knife cuts deeper into my heart

just remember you think I’m a bitch now

you just wait!!!!

whats wrong

If I cried BC I lost you

would you care?

What would you say?

Would you run away?

Would you watch me bleed?

Would you beg and Pleed?

Well your gone...

So don’t ask WTF IS WRONG!!!

reality

through the shadow I see a light

people trying to reach out

trying to grab at whatever reality they can grasp

when will they ever realize that the only reality

is the realization that there is NO reality

Im not mad at you

Im not mad at you

After all its not your fault

All that you have been through

You committed heart assult

I know you ment no harm

Just being you I guess

Putting on your hypnotizing charm

You had more than enough to impress

There was Michelle, Jessica, Mimi and more

Then me, who thought I was your only love

All turned out as you being a male whore

Wow, into reality with a forceful shove

You convinced me to come back

Said things were discordant with before

I had a minor brain laps attack

I came back to love and adore

The proof came about fast

You were still the same

I thought mabe we would last

You are not to blame

Im not mad at you

Its not your fault

Im just done with you

Its life after all

What part gets to heaven first

The nun teaching Sunday school was speaking to her class one morning and

she asked the question, "When you die and go to Heaven...which part of

your body goes first?" Suzy raised her hand and said, "I think it's your

hands."

"Why do you think it's your hands, Suzy?" Suzy replied, "Because

when you pray, you hold your hands together in front of you and God just

takes your hands first."

"What a wonderful answer!" the nun said.

Jimmy raised his hand and said, "Sister, I think it's your legs."

The nun looked at him with the strangest look on her face.

Now, Jimmy, why do you think it would be the legs?"

Jimmy said, "Well, I walked into Mommy and Daddy's bedroom the

other night. Mommy had her legs straight up in the air and she was

saying, "Oh God, I'm coming! If Dad hadn't pinned her down, we'd have lost her."

lost car

A drunk walks out of a bar with a key in his hand and he is stumbling back and forth. A cop on the beat sees him and approaches "Can I help you sir?"

"Yessh! Ssssomebody ssstole my carrr" the man replies.

The cop asks- "Where was your car the last time you saw it?"

It wasss on the end of thisshh key" the man replies.

About that time the cop looks down and sees the man's

'personality' is hanging out of his fly for all the world to see.

He asks the man "Sir, are you aware that you are exposing

yourself?

Momentarily confused, the drunk looks down at his crotch and, without missing a beat, blurts out.........."I'll be damned.......... My girlfriend's gone, too!!!!!"

Should children witness childbirth?

Due to a power outage, only one paramedic responded to the call. The house was very dark so the paramedic asked Kathleen, a 3-yr old girl to hold a flashlight high over her mommy so he could see while he helped deliver the baby. Very diligently, Kathleen did as she was asked. Heidi pushed and pushed and after a little while, Connor was born. The paramedic lifted him by his little feet and spanked him on his bottom. Connor began to cry. The paramedic then thanked Kathleen for her help and asked the wide-eyed 3-yr old what she thought about what she had just witnessed. Kathleen quickly responded, "He shouldn't have crawled in there in the first place......smack his ass again!"

I AM ME

Even though I love you

I'm not allowed to care

Even though I want you

I'm not allowed to dare

Even though I need you

I'm still in this nightmare

Wake me please

Before I die

Of heartache

Of loneliness

Of loss

Of despair

Without you I am nothing

With you I am chaos

Within I am torture

Without I am in complete control

As I look out the window

I see hatred and pain

My mind whirls

I find myself laying in the blood

The blood shed by the innocent

I close my eyes

There is the peace

The peace that finally makes me see

I am me

No matter what

I am me

BITCH BITCH BITCH(rant)

If its not one things its another

something about your mother treating your brother so differently than the other I swear your gonna smother me like every other female that has been in your life.

The kids cant behave in your eyes

they try and try, you hear their cries, they try and revise the way they are and improvise, they will do anything to make you realize and not despise them.

You dont have a job

just a blob,such a slob with a glob of food permanently on your shirt, such a sob I'm surprised your ass doesn't always throb

We try our best

you say kids are a pest, they leave you to rest UNTIL 4 at night, they are obsessed with trying to suppress and make you NOT stressed but you are NEVER impressed and always detest and say they are possessed just because they dont do EXACTLY as you suggest

Kids play and kids scream, they laugh and they giggle

even when out side the slightest giggle, jiggle or wiggle and you come unglued and BITCH BITCH BITCH

NO ONE can make you happy

not asking you to be sappy just not always crappy.

I am so tired of being tired of the bull shit

I swear alls you do is sit, hit and BITCH

My Dad My Hero

My dad is a hero
He’s in the U.S. Army
My dad is a hero
He fights for us to be free
My dad’s a hero
He’s been to Iraq tours totaling three
My dad is a hero
While fighting for you he was missing me and mommy
My dad is a hero
Even though he came back so so different
My dad is a hero
He still loves me but now he’s distant
My dad’s a hero
He shot people in the war
My dad is a hero
His memories leave a forever scar
My dad is a hero
He got cancer in his battles
My dad is a hero
He almost died over there with those camels
My dad’s a hero
But to the Army he is broken
My dad is a hero
To me and mommy he is golden
My dad is a hero
He sacrificed more than just his life you know
To the world my daddy is just a Soldier
But to ME my DAD IS A HERO
BY Paris C. Buffett
Aug. 3, 2008

Drink

drink

pain overflows my heart and soul

overwhelmed is an understatment

i try not to let it all show

i scream and stomp just to vent

anger overtakes my every thought

i break everything in sight

you are the one i sought

throughout my entire life

then you play with me like a toy

loosen every peice

now im supposed to be filled wit joy

your nuthin but deciet

you tore me up inside

ripd me apart

made me cry

destroyed my heart

now happy i am supposed to be

watchen you and her

knowen that you will never love me

my life is now a blurr

so as my tears drip down

soakin the into the ground

as i wipe away this frown

remember this last sound

water dripping in your sink

and filling up a glass

take the time to think

your drink my tears at last

dont let me run away (a poem of my life)

i walk my life alone

every one gone far away

my hearts an empty home

feelings gone astray

mother never cared

was incapable i believe

strong emotions spared

nothing but deceit

step dad was a sick bastard

a child molester at best

life wasn't that hard

just never got time to rest

always on the run

on the streets at a young age

family was all gone

on me they took their rage

i was the cause of all their pain

though i was the abused

they had to deal with all the strain

i was no longer there to be used

on the street i almost died

3 times to be exact

i never even cried

my feeling all abstract

i was claimed psychotic

at 14 i was a nut

they said i had no logic

i was a mixed up kid so what

what else could b expected

from a girl who lost her life

i was never respect

then to my wrist i took i knife

when i was finally released

how to live i had no clue

i was lost to say the least

i had no idea what to do

then i fell in love

for him i cared so much

something i was incapable of

but my heart didn't believe in such

we married at 18 so young

lasted through thick and thin

drugs were the tune that sung

and brought us to an end

4 lil girls out of 8 pregnancies

one child born dead

i paged him with emergencies

he wanted drugs instead

as time ticks by i realize

he only will cause pain

because drugs were his new wife

with him i cant remain

one more time i try

i fall in love again

he rips me part and makes me cry

think its all the same whit men

moving on wit my existence

nothing left to spare

towards love i have resistance

i've learned how not to care

just kids and me that's all that's left

i want nothing more

to be alone i think that's best

my boat stays on the shore

i live my life so shallowly

surface barely scaffed

i don't show anyone the real me

this way i'm always safe

i pretend to care just to not be alone

run when a slight tingle sparks my soul

now to you my love is shown

you've broken this heart of stone

Yourself

If YOU could go back in time what would YOU do?

Would YOU repeat what YOU had done?

The worthless mistakes YOU have run?

YOU the mindless embody of misfortune!?

Stay just as YOU?

OR

Would YOU have the common sense to take the trip

right through?

YOURSELF

Tina A. Blair

Copyright ©2005 Tina A. Blair

Luv

Luv

I will always love you...

LUV...
never forgeting...
never running out of something to say...
heartfelt disapointment...
then complete disaray...
till the time i close my eyes...
and wake up by myself...
realizing that your LUV so strong has thrown me on a shelf...
in the end we realize that wat you thought you felt...
was a complete misconception...
not just LOVE mispelt...
LUV...

Tina A. Blair

Copyright ©2005 Tina A. Blair

Fantasy

In my favorite tickling fantasy I am bound by my wrists and ankles in a standing, spread-eagle position. I am wearing a very tight sleeveless blouse and bell bottom pants that fit super tight from the waist through the crotch, then smooth but not tight through the thighs, then flaring out to very wide bottoms. My outfit is made of very sensuous nylon jersey, or sometimes fluid, slippery satin. I always picture the crotch seam pulling deep inside my labia, and the top molded to my huge breasts so that my erect nipples are clearly visible. He tickles me by running his fingertips or fingernails over the slick, shiny fabric. I howl with laughter, begging him to stop, crying out in total exasperation that I cannot stand it another moment. My screams are accompanied by wild gyrations, limited mostly to hip twisting and head shaking by the ropes that keep my limbs spread and my body vulnerable. For a long time he avoids my pussy, but eventually his fingers trace the groove in the fabric pulled tight up into my crotch, tickling me out of my mind while slowly teasing my clit to mind-shattering orgasms. If I have trouble getting over the edge at this point he pulls out my Hitachi Magic Wand and press the throbbing ball against my clit until I pass out.

He wakes me up lightly tickling my inner thigh as he is peeling my pants off me. I giggle as he nibbles on my thigh as he pulls my pants lower and lower. His teeth biting and nibbling down my thigh to my knees. I scream with laughter. Jerking my body vigorously back and forth. He is now at my calves and my pants are at my feet. nibbling on my calves and tickling my arches with his fingers. I beg for him to stop. Please!! Please!! STOP! He stop only for a second just to tell me NO!. Back to nibbling and tickling my tingling feet. Moving back up my calves fingers following suit. To my thigh, outside of my leg, then to my groind area. I thrust my hips trying to pull away. It does me no good. The ropes have me bound. Grazing his fingers over my inner thighs as he teases my clit with the tip of his tongue. Twisting my body to try and detour his fingers unsuccessfully. He dives into my pussy full heartily and reaches down for my soles. OMG the sensation. An electric shock runs throughout my body. I start screaming and moaning and laughing hysterically. My body is now in involuntary twitches. I begin to cum as he is still tickling my soles. Laughing uncontrollably and climaxing beyond belief. I let out an enormous scream and I squirt all over his face.

He doesn't stop. He reaches his hands up while still licking my labia. Running his finger up and down my sides. I jump side to side with each motion of his hands. Sucking on my clit one last time his tongue trails its way to my side. I beg NO! NO! NO! Not there!! Please. Getting the glitter in his eyes he attacks my sides not resenting a single nibble. I turn my head to see what he is reaching for. OH NO!! Its a feather. I start laughing and he hasn't even touched me with it yet. He stands up. I see he is fully erect. I get lost in his luxurious endowment only to be awoken from my gaze by the feather circling my hard nipples. At first lightly making me quietly giggle. Then harder and faster encircling my entire breast and nipple. Once again my laughter come beckoning out without my consent. Trying to contort my body in anyways possible to get away. He pushes my legs apart and slides his shaft into my drenched pussy. I moan in enjoyment. His eyes light up then he runs the feather up my chest to my neck. Turning my head and trying to use my chin to get the feather aways from my collar bone and neck. Two different wonderful sensations. His hard cock filling my pussy fully. Touching every inch of my wall. Driving me insane. Also the tickling, tingling and fulfilling spasms going through my upper body due to the feather. I'm laughing more then I ever have in my life in the midst of my breathless moaning. I feel his swell inside me. The head of his cock getting larger and larger. leaning forward to nibble on my ear as he thrust harder into my warm pussy. I start to squirm and laugh hard as hell. OH MY!! I feel it. His HOT cum shoots deep into my pussy. I let out an elated moan as i cream all over his throbbing cock. He reaches up and unties my hands then melts down to the floor at my feet completely exhausted.

I reach down and kiss his forehead then until my ankles. Baby, why don't you go lay on the bed and I'll get you a drink. He drags himself to the bed and lays down. I go get his drink. Grabbing a couple other things on the way back. I set his drink on the nightstand next to the bed and walk to the other side of the bed. He looks at me kinda odd then reaches for his drink. I see my opportunity and grab his unsuspecting legs and tie them to the end of the bed. acting fast i grab his arms and wrestle his already weak arm to the bed then tie it. so easy to get his other arm. Now that he is fully restrained I grab the electric flosser. he start laughing and begging me not to do it. saying he is already so tired to please stop.At his feet i start by pressing it gently at the ball of his big toe.HE starts kicking as best he can. crunching his toes and swinging his feet back and forth. I trow the flosser and decide just to use my fingers working my way up to his inner thighs. He starts bouncing his body up and down and laughing hysterically. His behind was bouncing up and down trying his best to buck me off him. I look down and see his cock hard as hell. Sliding my dripping pussy down. Filling my walls spread as he enters deep inside me. I reach down and glid my fingers up and down under his arms. his bucking increases now only enhancing my pleasure. Not his intention of course BUT hey it works. Tickling profusely his underarm and leaning down to bite and nibble just under his ears. Riding his cock harder and harder. His laughing just gets me closer with every yell. His laughing pauses for a moment. I look at his face to see What is wrong. He lets out this earth shattering scream as he explodes his load. His cum oozing around my cervix fills my body with such emotion and arouses my deep sensations i just cant take is Oh My God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I cum hard. Dripping all over. Our combind juices blend our bodies together as one. I kiss his lips and we both pass out.